Noah.
Today is just not my day.
If he stays here like I think he’s planning to, at least he would be around Matt who I know for sure is staying back. He’ll have you, whoever else he knows from school remaining here after graduation, and his mom who I’m sure has sent him out a couple times for Mayor type of stuff already.
Grace, always the wise one. That’s a major if though. He has a life here, just like I do but a lot can happen during that time. Not to our relationship exactly, but life. Who knows what kinds of things will happen for him here once I leave? What if he never wants to leave, or has no interest in where I want to go? I’ll never be able to fully be there for him if something bad happens, and vice versa. Emails and phone calls aren’t as effective as face to face conversation. I’ll think about what you said, because I don’t want to give up on him and if there’s any hope for making it work, I’ll take it. But it’s too soon to jump right back into pressuring him into making any decisions like this. I think we need some time to think.
He’ll have us to make it easier for him, every day he’s away from you, we’ll be there to take his mind off of it. If he needs someone to talk to, or he needs help with something you can’t be here for, we’ve got it covered.
All I know is, that you two love each other a lot and that’s reason enough to try. He’ll regret not being able to try the long distance thing, all you need to do is ask him to try. Actually, you don’t even have to. He’ll come to his senses sooner or later - I should have some faith in him as well, he’s changed for the better and he will come around Care. For the summer, at least, you two should spend that time together and think less about the future. Make every day count rather than be apart, it’ll do you both some good.
Or y’know, I can just tell him if I have to deal with having a long distance relationship with my best friend, he can handle his girlfriend not being here every day. Give it a day or two. It’s going to work out.
Today is just not my day.
I would have worked at it, put effort into it — but it seems a lot more complicated than not seeing each other everyday. I can’t force him into doing anything he doesn’t want to. I don’t even know where his head is at, so I don’t even think he’s going anywhere nor can I ask him to drop everyone he has in Mystic and come out to Pennsylvania with me where at least I would have college and he’d have nobody.
I know you’re trying to make me feel better, and I love how much faith you have in Tyler and I, but I don’t want him to be stuck in a relationship where he can only see his girlfriend when it’s over the Internet or during breaks. It’s not fair to him. Maybe you’re right, and I’m just being stubborn, but I don’t want to try and have it a thousand times worse if I’m all the way out there and it doesn’t work. Four years is a long time to be away from someone. I feel silly saying it, but I’m scared. I want him with me, but not if it’s not going to work out in the end.
Try talking to him again? Get Matt to talk to him? He’s not going to give you a straight answer, not yet at least. What’s keeping him in Mystic? It seems like it would be a selfish thought to have him move with you but if you two love each other and there’s nothing in Mystic for him, why not talk about it?
I know exactly what you mean and if I was in your situation - I get it but do you think Tyler wants to be with anyone else? In all the years I’ve know him, no one has made him as happy as you did, Care. You’re worth waiting around for and who knows, after a year, what if Tyler is ready to move? What if you want to go to a new school and Tyler likes the location? You two need to sit and talk it out and you still have so much time together. You should be cherishing it rather than being apart.
At least we won’t be here to see it all come crashing down, right?
That’s half the fun, though. Who knows? Maybe they’ll cause such a catastrophe that the news will spread like wildfire. That would be good enough and all the scattered seniors can laugh.
Oh, and your brother wants me to buy you a dolphin - I think. Story behind that or is he just so drunk that it’s nonsense?
(Source: grace-roberts)
Today is just not my day.
I’m leaving, Grace, and that was the problem. Long distance was too risky, and it would have been selfish for either of us to expect it, no matter how much I pushed for it. He just couldn’t do it. No, don’t. Don’t talk to him. At least not about me or this. There’s nothing to say.
It’s not that risky, Care. I mean, I understand the situation but are you really going to let that be the end of your relationship? Tyler’s dragged you to all of these distant locations and when you move - without a doubt he would make an effort to visit you and vice versa.
He can do it and he’ll come to his senses eventually, and you know why? Because he’ll want to be with the girl who makes him a better person and that’s you, Care. Ever since you two got together, it’s no secret that Tyler’s been much happier than he’s ever been and everyone’s noticed his new attitude. It’s not selfish at all. Do you think there’s even a remote chance that there’s someone out there that can make him as happy as you did? Or someone who you could love more than Tyler? Even if it means waiting, and not seeing one another every single day, I think you two are strong enough to handle it. Distance makes the heart grow fonder - just give him some time and he’ll realize that you can and will make it work. Believe me.
Today is just not my day.
It’s bad.
Last night Tyler and I talked about it. College, I mean. I told him what I told you about Penn State and choosing to leave. He.. it was hard.
Maybe he just needs to clear his mind… He might have said some things without thinking but he didn’t - I mean you two didn’t call it quits, right? Do you want me to talk to him?
Today is just not my day.
I just wasn’t feeling it this morning, wouldn’t have been able to focus if I had gone. It’s not smart to start missing school so close to graduation, but everyone has their off days, right? How much time do you have.
You’re not one to miss school either… So it must be pretty bad?
I’m here for you Care and all the time you need - putting aside my papers and everything right now. You have my full attention.
neber gibe my suster a dolhoinh
Maybe I was wrong. You seem more approachable when you’re drunk. Got it, I’ll get a dolphin? I think that’s right. Lyla, you’re getting a dolphin.
(Source: grace-roberts)
